For as long as I can remember, New Year's has been a time to set goals - and end up accomplishing very few. It wasn't that I am not motivated or determined to accomplish them, it's just that my goals were so far out there. For years on end my goal was to get engaged. Engaged? We should start off work "Have a boyfriend." Some goals were silly, some were more serious like losing weight. Or saving money. The problem was, I wanted to save $5,000 yet couldn't stop spending money at the casino. I would lose weight by April and reach my goal weight but by December I would be right back up again. Goals should be reasonable actions and possibly within a shorter time frame. This year, I was surprised that I didn't set any concrete goals. Of course I still want to lose weight and others, but this year has mainly been stepping back and analyzing my life. I want to be surrounded by people who are positive, who keep me happy and vice versa. Who truly value and care about me. I just spent ten days in California. I know my family here cares about me and loves me (obviously) but it's so different being out there and spending time with family that I only usually see once or twice a year. I want to live a life that is fun because, honestly, why should I wait until I retire to have fun? I see life, not as working your ass off now, but balancing a life now so that you don't regret waiting 50+ years to live your life.
With that being said, I have decided to start over with my life, give myself a clean slate and enjoy the adventures that life has to offer. I will be moving to California on February 13th. Living in Utah, the snow has taken a toll on me. I want to drive on the highway and see the ocean out my window, I want to spend time with my grandparents, and laugh constantly with my cousin. I have had 31 years of taking care of others, making sure my brother and sister knew that I would be there for them growing up, making sure I was close to my family. I don't want that aspect to change. I can still be close with my family and see them as often as possible. I have been saying for years that I want to move to California but the opportunity never arose. As most of you know, I sold my condo in November and I have been spending the past few months with my friend Ashley. I was having a condo built and it was planning to be done in February. After speaking to my Mom and my boyfriend, we figured that now would be the perfect time to go to California. I haven't moved in to my new condo and I was able to cancel the contract, I moved out of my old condo and paid off all of my debts.
Now is the perfect time for adventure and I can't wait to see what life has in store for me.
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