Monday, April 27, 2015

Seven months and 1 day later....

Who is really counting? I have no idea why I remember September 26. Why it stays in my mind so much. Yes, that is when Kevin broke up with me but my life has been so much better without him. This weekend was SO much fun. I went to Gracies both Friday and Saturday night. I don't know how I managed that one. I was there until close both nights too. I was super surprised that I didn't know anyone there both nights. Except one person. It was bizarre but I danced my a$$ off and had a blast both nights. This weekend was so opposite from a few weekends ago where I was seriously depressed. And sad.

Saturday afternoon I met the most amazing person. Kylan. We spent time together Saturday and time together yesterday and I cannot stop thinking about him. He truly is someone that is not only handsome, but honest, a great listener, loves sports like I do, we have so much in common that it is honestly scary. I woke up this morning thinking about him, drove to work thinking about him, talked about him at work, came home and thought about him as I was talking to him. I don't know what he did to me and even though we have only known each other for six days, I already like so much about him. Plus, the feeling is mutual. I am so used to liking someone and having to fight for them to like me back. Not this time. This time is different. I don't know where things are going to go but I love what direction things are going. I am so so so so happy. My heart is so happy. I kind of like him.

I won't lie though, I am finally at a point where I am used to being single. I love Gracies every weekend and I love going out with my girlfriends. I'm still single but I never thought I would get used to being single. Seven months ago I was completely opposite. I was desperate for a relationship, needed love and someone there. Inside I was not happy. I was confused. I never ever thought I would be able to move forward with my life. I never thought I would be okay with being single. The past few months I have enjoyed the single life more than I ever thought I would.

I am going to just live life and see where things go. But I do know one thing for sure. I am one happy woman :)

Sunday, April 12, 2015

Wow What Happened?

Yesterday I was in the biggest funk. I haven't been this sad/emotional/depressed in a long time. I have been on this emotional roller coaster the past six months and I am sure that if you know me, you know what I mean. One day I enjoy being single, the next I hate it. I was looking forward all last week to seeing the UK boys, and we did, just not mine. Don't get me wrong, Gracies was SO fun like always, until 2am when drama happened and I was just sad that I never saw "Robin Thicke". All yesterday my serious thoughts were....I'm not cute, I'm not skinny, no one likes me, I'm not funny. And those words kept repeating themselves over and over. I really don't know why I got to that point. Maybe I'm sick of men who just want one thing or maybe I'm just missing my UK fling. I at least wanted to say bye but I know I'll get over it. They left to go back to the UK on Saturday.

Saturday morning, I got home at 4am. That same day I saw a picture of Robin Thicke on Facebook (who he looks like) and then today I forgot I had Robin Thickes playlist on Pandora. What does this mean?

Being human means you will have off days. Unfortunately my off day was one day out of my weekend but it's been a chaotic last few weeks.

Today I woke up in a much better place and in a much better, happier, normal Abbie, mood. My book is officially published and I am so in love with it! I feel so accomplished and so happy but still not complete. It'll get there. I am down 4lbs, I went and worked out today, went to Target, last night I went on a walk and watched the Jazz game and decided to take it easy since I was feeling so sad and depressed. I am so grateful for friends and family that I talked to yesterday that helped me try and get over this mountain. I'm gonna try not to go out to clubs or Gracies as much because of the emotions that I go through afterwards. I love guys and I do love being single. I just hate emotions that come with that. This upcoming Friday will be the Utah Grizzlies hockey playoff game and then Saturday I will be seeing (and most likely meeting) Ryan Cabrera! And yes, I have been planning my weekends weeks ahead. It's more fun that way :) And I hate sitting at home (although during the week it's easier for me to do that because I work all day) so I like knowing that I'll be going out.

At Gracie's Friday night we actually met and talked to three NBA refs! That was pretty cool because we all know how much I love the NBA. If I drank, my drink would have been paid for by one of them but since I stuck with water, it was free :) After the craziness that has gone on the last few weeks, I def wanted a drink.

It's always complicated when you're single and always confusing. I never know who I'll meet or what I'll do but I do like the fact that I can choose and not stick with one person for now :) We all have off days but in the end, I wouldn't have it any other way. I am happy to be me and I am grateful for my talents and no one can ever take that away.

Sunday, April 5, 2015

The Life of a Single Woman - Happiest I have been

The last two weeks have been the BEST two weeks of my single life. It's been six months since Kevin and I broke up and I am at my happiest. Two weeks ago, Angie and I went to the Grizzlies hockey game. I don't think I have ever been to a hockey game before but it was SO fun and way more intense than Jazz games. After, we decided to try Gracie's Sports Bar. I didn't expect to be there until 1:30/2:00am. I feel like my 20 year old self is coming out. We just danced the whole night and met this group of UK Military men. We hit it off with them right away. They are here for 3 weeks (They live in the UK) and there phones don't work here so we honestly had no idea if we would see them again.

Friday night we went to the Grizzlies game again and decided to go to Gracies after. Guess who we see? The UK men! Oh my gosh, my night had been made. I was so happy. There was one in particular that we just clicked and I was so beyond excited to see him again. We hung out with them a lot that night. They leave one week from tomorrow to go back to the UK so this upcoming Friday....Gracies again and hopefully their wonderful company after :)

Saturday night was the final Grizzlies game before playoffs. I cannot believe I am missing watching my Jazz games for hockey. But we sit first/second row and see the action right in front of us, the fights, the goals....way intense. Hockey games are so cheap for first row compared to the NBA. And a lot more happens. I don't have very many girlfriends and never really have so to actually spend time with girlfriends has been so different and nice for me.

I love that I can work hard, play hard. Work has been extremely time consuming, but I love it. Then to have the weekends to dance and relax, it's seriously one of the best things for me. I love being around family and friends and positive people.

Today is Easter and I not only had my grandparents there (they moved to Vegas five months ago and we haven't seen them since), but my cousins and Aunt Jen (they are moving in a few months so this was our last celebration together), and my three nieces and their family and of course Mom and the kids. I am so grateful for where my life is right now. My book is OFFICIALLY published and I will get my own copy next week - I hope! I don't need a man to accomplish things in my life. For the moment, I am extremely happy to be single.

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I'm Abbie. I am 28 years old and live in Utah. I love Social Media, Marketing, shopping, sports, traveling, shopping, giveaways, family, fashion, and currently writing a book.